Sometimes I feel a bit slow. Like it takes me a while to figure out something that is really very simple. My emotions too often dictate my reality:
"You are forgotten."
"You are not needed."
"You are not good at this."
Recently, a friend recommended a music album to me, and at the same time, I was encouraged to meditate on verses about God's love for me. The two circumstances collided to cause me to see Scripture in a new way.
"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not depend on its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance." 1 Corinthians 11:4-7
I have read these verses countless times. Read them aloud. Read them at weddings. Read them at church. Read them to my kids. Evaluated myself by them.
But it never occurred to me to remember that THIS is how God loves me!
As much as I know that He loves me, loves me so much He gave his Son for me, the nearly-tangible descriptions of His love hit a chord in me.
We've been wading through disappointment, betrayal, crushed hopes, and failure lately. I rehash everything in my head, wondering where I went wrong and what I did.
But these verses remind me that He does not wonder. He does not delight to see me hurt or suffer. He is patient with me the way I try to be with my children. I don't give up on them the first time they disobey. He is sticking with me until the end. I am His.
I can rest in this. I can find all I need in this.
I am loved.